Saturday was a day full of sleep. Normally this would sound good to most people. However, my brain simply was refusing to wake up. I slept all but probably 5 hours.
I know a brain heals only in sleep but sleep is getting old. When I was awake, it was like my brain was on a merry-go-round with me sitting in the center, watching the world spin faster and faster.
Sunday brought Mass. I refuse to give up ushering, even though it makes me sick most of the time. I need to have some normalcy in my life. We went to a restaurant afterwards, good food but a ton of stimulation.
By the time I got home my body was in shutdown mode. For me, it's either go down or things come up. I spent a few hours sleeping. I heard my dad say something about the TV not working right while watching the Daytona 500.
Naturally, my curious mind had to figure it out. So I came out of my dungeon of sorts to help figure it out.
I don't think there were more than 50 laps left in the race. I stayed and watched the race, having to take many breaks by looking away from the TV . I am known to push myself beyond limits and today was no exception.
Well, let's just say my stomach started to rebel, I had been fighting it for a while, by the end of the race. So, I must admit that sports still don't agree with me. Frustrating as heck for a guy who likes sports and loves being a sports photographer.
I have spent most of the rest of the day sleeping and trying to overcome my symptoms. Life with a brain injury still continues to be tough. I missed my Godson's baptism today because I can't travel. God has a plan for all this suffering. I have yet to see the entire picture.
Please continue to pray
Joe, My heart hurts for all you have gone through and this constant battle. Many would battle depression and yet you still can find a way to fight through this and give God the glory. It reminds me of Romans 5:3:
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I encourage you to use this time to get closer to Him. Read and study a closer look at Job or Paul's epistles. Then, find a sports photographer you are impressed with and read his/her blogs and books to gain more photography knowledge to prepare yourself for the day you can pick your camera back up. Keep me posted, Buddy! Big Poppa and I love you like our own son. You are always in our prayers!!!